T-Mail Jail (Tyra Banks-Modelland)

This journey hasn't been easy for me. Every step of the way I've struggled, stumbled, doubted, cursed, and felt sure that I couldn't go on. But I feel stronger because of it, almost like I need to go through it to get where I am now. I still don't know if Modelland is my place or if I'm meant for something else. Maybe I'll always doubt. But maybe it's the doubt that keeps me determined. Hungry. Always looking  to prove and improve myself, make myself better.
    Every night, as I lie in my Lumiére-less bed, I wonder how many girls there are like me out there around the world.

Maybe, like me, your father abandoned you, or perhaps you never even knew him. Maybe your mom's a terror or you have no friends. Maybe you're not the best-loved or best-looking daughter. Maybe someone hurt you but uou're to nervous to tell anyone. maybe you hurt yourself and want to stop but don't know how. Maybe you give of your body freely, hoping to get love in return. Or maybe you look at everyone else's bodies and then compare them to and detest your own. Maybe people hurl angry, hurtful words at you, making you want to curl up and disappear. maybe you hate your reflection, or everyone thinks you're the prettiest but you still feel ugly inside. Maybe you're under intense pressure that you think you can never overcome. Maybe someone tells you daily that you aren't smart or pretty or skinny or talented or good enough.
    I know what you are going through. I've made a difficult journey to get here, and I have a lot farther to go. I must fight for my place every single day. It's easy to shine when everything is perfect. But when things are a little shaky, the best truly emerge to show it won't tear them down. That´s when the struggle to succeed really starts. I pray you find that strenght inside of you, that special inner light that shines extra-bright.
    I want to dedicate my struggle and all my time at Modelland to you. Everything I've gone through, everything I'll continue to face, is all for you. And I want you make me a promise: take all your pain, take all the hurt you're feeling and your bad memories and your darkest thoughts, and send it out to the universe... to me. I'll be your vessel. I'll carry all of the hurt inside me so that you can be free. And every challenge I go through at Modelland will be for me and you. For us. We can do this. But I'm going to need you too. When i feel weak, scared, or like i want to give up, I need you to send your strenght and power up to me on this mountain. I can't make it through this place alone. Okay? Promise?
    I believe in you with all my heart-and I hope you believe in me. I just want us to get to the place where we believe in ourselfs just as strongly. And besides, there's always room for you in the exclusice Unicas crew.

 

Fierce & Love

 

Tookie (Rememba girl)